Okay. Start in the middle.
I would be easier for me to explain this slowly, as i drew it bit by bit the way it was drawn on a whiteboard for me.
but this isn't the smartclassroom this is just my journal with awkward fonts and line spacing errors I haven't learned to correct yet. I would sign up for a class on blogging, but then I would get bored of sitting still under florescent lights in uncomfortable chairs and skip the class to go play in the forest. besides. I already committed to one more workshop this year and it is "Chainsaw Safety" which admittedly makes me very nervous, so I'm already harnessing much calm and focus and discipline to pay attention on that day.
So. In the middle circle we have the Brain.
the Brain is made up of Neurons and Knowledge. It works in the past tense (based on connections you have made)
The next dotted ring is the Mind. Your Mind does not come from inside you.
The Mind is made up of Energy and Knowledge.
What does that mean? The way I think of the Mind now is "everything you let in". think: "the art of allowing"
I made a cool diagram about how people are like signal towers. So I hope you are all on the edge of your seat in anticipation of that.
anyhow, so think of the mind as non-local stuff:
- your ex-roommates mama journey - even though you haven't physically been together in 4 years, you still maintain powerful Quantum Entanglement. you can say dismissively "oh that's just a thing called the internet" but pause for a moment to consider that we are in constant transfer with each-other of hi-fi motion picture sounds at the speed of light. its way miraculous.
-factor in all the energy you are processing. Did you just eat an apple? Now that apple's entire life story and its whole epigeneic history and the good vibes from the farmers who read love poems to it are all merging with the consciousness that is "You"
-i dunno, whatever else is out there comin atcha. Glitter and Doom.
Counselor McAwesome said (that's not sarcasm I'm just not that creative at inventing character names yet. it's a skill I'm developing. He said I had permission to write and share about my experiences, because I am the owner of my own life experiences.)... He drew the "observer" circle and said the observer watches the Mind (which is our collective consciousness) then he says there is also the "watcher" and above that is the broadcast coming atcha from "Beingness" (Soul) which is half dotted because it is the gateway to you.
He says this Framework is Transcendent of Space and Time.
that staircase looking thing is meaningless, I was just trying to separate the diagram from my notes.
I asked why we see the world from the Vantage Point of "stasia Bryant" for example. Why don't we always remember all the lives and all the times.
He tells me to Ask God.
duly noted.
Counselor McAwesome and I both agree that we can't remember the whole picture because we wouldn't be able to focus on the task at hand and it would be impossible for us to exist in "This Now"
oh there's another note. He says Everybody Knows that Energy contains Knowlege, but most people don't look for it because they don't function as if they have a brain - which is just neurons - not who You really are.
fascinating.
The notes on the side were part of the "You're a Mom so you aren't allowed to be a skateboarder anymore... blahblahblah..." Wherever that shitty idea came at me from I let it sail right by my Brain, and now I am serving it into the Universal Mind that that's a completely idiotic idea and everyone is allowed to be whatever they want.
Anyways he asked me some questions about what I was working on to be a good provider to my family and community and that is definitely a concept that has been using up all my Mental Ram for the past 7 years. I am working on a huge idea chart that is almost ready. There will be a 6 month action plan, and some 5 year targets. I'm the most excited I have ever been.
Anyhow I mentioned Dymaxion Engineering and that If you can't pressure wash your kitchen and have it drain strategically into the garden, you're doing it Wrong.
He scoffed and with the sorrow of acceptance in his heart he said "Our Culture can't even Handle a Greywater Sysetem." (you should see this Man's homestead. Rudolph Steiner approved.
I laughed so hard I said "wait I have to write that down!"
Then he said yadda yadda yadda how am I going to figure out how to provide for my family while receiving a Grand Total of $0 child support annually.
I said I was working on a bunch of stuff right now, Storytelling, It seems like a big part of the job they assigned me is to be a storyteller.
He said there's this Clarissa chick with a book: Women Who Run With The Wolves and I should read that book
and I said "oh cool I have that book on my shelf but I haven't gotten around to it yet"
(I found it in the Bibles For Missions Book Dumpsters at York and Victoria Road. )
❤ oh Guelph ❤
I have noticed two of my Granola Mama Army friends recently reading Clarissa's words,
because I have the Oracle that is Facebook.
that is all for this morning. the sun is coming up and it is time to let the ducks out. then go find a place to stand with enough cell service so I can attack the horrifying stack of responsibility that is returning phone-calls to all the people.
I hypothesize that Millennials despise doing phonecalls because it is navigating an endless stream of Robot Voices and Button Pushing and Guesswork and really Terrible Hold Music (um, some Taylor Swift maybe please??? at least something I could dance to?) and by the time you get to the person it's just thier voicemail so we have to do this crap all over again tomorrow. oh but tomorrow it's raining so there is no cell service in the Forrest.
On the idea chart list I will demonstrate the Pro's of living way out here (cute conversations with Blue Jay's and Squirrels who help me put my coat on in the morning) vs. the Con's (being haunted by so much adult responsibility that is level 20 difficult to manage from such a remote location with $0 child support per month. I recognize that it is entirely my responsibility that I chose to have illegitimate children with really smart nice-hearted guys who decide to be 13 year old girls for their present eternity (but have the personal power to change that at anytime!)
I'm glad I chose to have my daughters when I did. I love them and I love thier father's and I love Our life. A lot of people seem to think that I am only qualified to work at Tim Hortons and that minimum wage slavery will be the rest of my time spent here on earth.
People are Lazy Thinkers. (that's a 23 year old boy response)
Learn that Time is your most precious asset. Can you buy back your babies childhood with all of the delicious Gold you earned as an Investment Banker??? No. You can't.
What you can do if you accidentally screw yourself over and become a "Broke Single Mom" is to leverage all of your resources and invest in yourself to the Max while you have the pleasure of dabbling. Then One day your kids will be ready: "Mom. We are so bored of you and tired of you and we are really seeking so much more stimulation from our community. What is out there for us?"
And you may say, "Excellent. The Time has Arrived for the wicked transition."
No One Person can be Everything to any other One Person. it's simply not how we are designed as a species, or as a universe. That's the entire (and only) principle of Polyamory. which simply means "many Love".
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